I Love you, three words I can’t seem to reveal
I don’t know but I’m afraid to let you go
Sorry, if I remained silent and alone
But I want to know your heart’s very tone
But do you know my heart kept bleeding inside
And I might give up on this rollercoaster ride
I kept asking myself so many questions
So many what ifs about us…
What if I told you this?
Will we be together?
Or you’ll be my enemy forever?
This and many more…
And do you know that everytime I see you I can’t breath!
‘Coz I love you and this kept me having this guilt
Guilt ‘coz I love you but kept on saying that I don’t
But why are you not telling me what you feel?
I wish I could hear what your heart is singing
I wish I could be with you now until the song’s ending
I wish the song would never have its end
So I could be with you now until the end…
Monday, March 17, 2008
Untitled
"hey, there he is..."
My heart told me this
I turned like I was used
He looked at me confused
I blocked his way
and he'd look at me with gay
It's so frequent
That I can't forget the current
He sung songs to me
Tunes that made me sleep soundly
I slept hearing his voice
And then, he woke m up as his own choice
It's quite childish
But he never forgets to cherish
He seemed to have no ambition
But I know he has his own notion
Like a child prodigy once told me
That love was a war
Easy to start
But hard to part
Is this a war I begun?
Or just a friendship with someone?
It's way too close
I hope it's the way I chose...
My heart told me this
I turned like I was used
He looked at me confused
I blocked his way
and he'd look at me with gay
It's so frequent
That I can't forget the current
He sung songs to me
Tunes that made me sleep soundly
I slept hearing his voice
And then, he woke m up as his own choice
It's quite childish
But he never forgets to cherish
He seemed to have no ambition
But I know he has his own notion
Like a child prodigy once told me
That love was a war
Easy to start
But hard to part
Is this a war I begun?
Or just a friendship with someone?
It's way too close
I hope it's the way I chose...
Time
Time passes by
I don’t know how to say goodbye
To those who made my stay so fun
Even at first I wanted to run
But you know, I’m glad I didn’t gave up
For at the end I learned how to rise up
From a traumatic fall
Crisis that made my heart crawl
Year by year, I crossed trials and defeat
I didn’t know how I did it
But I did it with them
Who else but my friends
They sure act crazier than I
But they surely won’t let you cry
We had the same interest
But in times of trouble we could surely rest
Year by year, I meet new people
But there are some who really stayed even in times of trouble
I cried, I laughed and I learned how to treasure
A friendship that would last endless of measure
And now, that leaving was so near
I don’t know how to say goodbye to all of you my dear
Now, that it’s quite clear
Leaving would make us all again near
Don’t worry I won’t just leave you behind
‘Coz it’s not yet the end
We’ll meet again
‘Coz time is limitless and would always regain…
I don’t know how to say goodbye
To those who made my stay so fun
Even at first I wanted to run
But you know, I’m glad I didn’t gave up
For at the end I learned how to rise up
From a traumatic fall
Crisis that made my heart crawl
Year by year, I crossed trials and defeat
I didn’t know how I did it
But I did it with them
Who else but my friends
They sure act crazier than I
But they surely won’t let you cry
We had the same interest
But in times of trouble we could surely rest
Year by year, I meet new people
But there are some who really stayed even in times of trouble
I cried, I laughed and I learned how to treasure
A friendship that would last endless of measure
And now, that leaving was so near
I don’t know how to say goodbye to all of you my dear
Now, that it’s quite clear
Leaving would make us all again near
Don’t worry I won’t just leave you behind
‘Coz it’s not yet the end
We’ll meet again
‘Coz time is limitless and would always regain…
Magical World of Love
Love can be so satisfying
Satisfying that you could do it ‘till you’re dying
It could make you belive
Even with the hurt no one could relieve
It could inspire you throughout your journey
Maybe it sounds funny
But it’s true, that anyone can do
Even you could do it, just be true
Friendship may end in love
And you could already see a flying dove
It maybe magical and fantasy
But the feeling wasn’t a fallacy
You may sound this corny
But you’ll later feel this truly!
When you finally experienced
The magical world of LOVE!
Satisfying that you could do it ‘till you’re dying
It could make you belive
Even with the hurt no one could relieve
It could inspire you throughout your journey
Maybe it sounds funny
But it’s true, that anyone can do
Even you could do it, just be true
Friendship may end in love
And you could already see a flying dove
It maybe magical and fantasy
But the feeling wasn’t a fallacy
You may sound this corny
But you’ll later feel this truly!
When you finally experienced
The magical world of LOVE!
Painful Mistake
A family living a happy and harmonious life, a perfect daughter so much close to her father and a father thinking he had the perfect daughter a father could ever wish for. Until this day came, she made a mistake. She fell in love with someone his father doesn’t want. After painful words been said by both of them, she went away, not knowing her beloved father has only few months to live.
Her father was hospitalized for months now and still nobody knows. He knew where to call her daughter but he didn’t tried even ones. Finally, he tried, he called her up to tell how sorry he was. On the other line she was still crying and said one single word, “Sorry.” And then the phone hanged up. Suddenly the nurse picked the phone up, telling her, “He’s dead…”
Her father was hospitalized for months now and still nobody knows. He knew where to call her daughter but he didn’t tried even ones. Finally, he tried, he called her up to tell how sorry he was. On the other line she was still crying and said one single word, “Sorry.” And then the phone hanged up. Suddenly the nurse picked the phone up, telling her, “He’s dead…”
Regrets
I just saw him a while ago
But my heart still chose to go
I saw him turning his eyes on me
But I turned so he won’t notice me
I don’t know why I felt this way
I’m falling for you all night and day
But I kept my heart hidden
So, it won’t have its bruises worsen
I don’t know why I felt like this
I know, I don’t want anything to miss
But I still choose to keep myself silent
So, at the end I won’t have anything to regret
But you know despite all this
I still want to be your friend at least
So, I would accompany you with what you do
So, someone would help you, and that would be me and you…
But my heart still chose to go
I saw him turning his eyes on me
But I turned so he won’t notice me
I don’t know why I felt this way
I’m falling for you all night and day
But I kept my heart hidden
So, it won’t have its bruises worsen
I don’t know why I felt like this
I know, I don’t want anything to miss
But I still choose to keep myself silent
So, at the end I won’t have anything to regret
But you know despite all this
I still want to be your friend at least
So, I would accompany you with what you do
So, someone would help you, and that would be me and you…
Only Treasure
A father saw how his 8-year old child suffered from an incurable disease before it faced death. It caused him so much pain, many times more than that pain experienced by his child.
A week after the burial of his child, he decided to go to church. Not for praying so hard but to question God why He let this happen to him. God never answered his question by any means. So, he angrily said to God, “Why do you have to do this to me? Why do you have to take my only treasure? And why does the most painful thing has to happen to me?”
Still there was silence all around. He doesn’t know what to do and then suddenly there was a light, shining just in front of him, so bright but it’s a dazzling sight. He didn’t saw God but he saw his child waving at him with smile on his face. His child said, “He’s taking care of me, I’m okay, Dad.” Then, it disappeared with the feeling of anger in his heart because somehow he knew that God was always here, He never forgets to take good care to each one of us and God would never fail us, not now, never.
A week after the burial of his child, he decided to go to church. Not for praying so hard but to question God why He let this happen to him. God never answered his question by any means. So, he angrily said to God, “Why do you have to do this to me? Why do you have to take my only treasure? And why does the most painful thing has to happen to me?”
Still there was silence all around. He doesn’t know what to do and then suddenly there was a light, shining just in front of him, so bright but it’s a dazzling sight. He didn’t saw God but he saw his child waving at him with smile on his face. His child said, “He’s taking care of me, I’m okay, Dad.” Then, it disappeared with the feeling of anger in his heart because somehow he knew that God was always here, He never forgets to take good care to each one of us and God would never fail us, not now, never.
My Friend
How I want to love you
But how will I suppose to do?
When the one, I loved before
Is now beside me and we’re closer even more
He’s now my friend
He is my best friend
He’s again beside me
Acting like what we’re supposed to be
I don’t know if it’s for real
But I know what I feel
You’re the one here inside
But he’s here beside
But he never left my heart
Even we changed our part
But one thing never changed
This love that I feel was still unchanged
I don’t know what to do?
When my heart tells me, “I Love You”
I don’t know what to do?
When it wants to tell him, “I Love You too”
Is this feeling for real?
Or am I just confused of what I feel?
Maybe it sounds crazy…
But this is what’s inside… really…
Friend… that’s all life has to offer
Friend… that’s all I could be forever
To be beside you and him
You’ll always be my friend, we’re team
But if I’ll have to choose
He would still be the one I would never lose
‘Coz I know he’ll never leave me again
Even he’s only my friend
But how will I suppose to do?
When the one, I loved before
Is now beside me and we’re closer even more
He’s now my friend
He is my best friend
He’s again beside me
Acting like what we’re supposed to be
I don’t know if it’s for real
But I know what I feel
You’re the one here inside
But he’s here beside
But he never left my heart
Even we changed our part
But one thing never changed
This love that I feel was still unchanged
I don’t know what to do?
When my heart tells me, “I Love You”
I don’t know what to do?
When it wants to tell him, “I Love You too”
Is this feeling for real?
Or am I just confused of what I feel?
Maybe it sounds crazy…
But this is what’s inside… really…
Friend… that’s all life has to offer
Friend… that’s all I could be forever
To be beside you and him
You’ll always be my friend, we’re team
But if I’ll have to choose
He would still be the one I would never lose
‘Coz I know he’ll never leave me again
Even he’s only my friend
Maybe
I knew you loved me from the start
But I’m sorry if I kept my heart
And remained as your friend
So, nothing will come to an end
But now, what is this I feel?
I knew it was something for real
I can’t take it anymore, and I need to confess
And tell you this…
I’m just afraid
Will you still be my friend?
Or maybe worst
My heart will end burst
Maybe if I felt this years before
I have nothing to be worry for
But I know this is what He planned
Maybe we’ll need to put this to its end
Maybe someone would still be waiting right there
Maybe it’s not you anymore
But I have one thing to wish for
That you’ll still be my friend once more…
But I’m sorry if I kept my heart
And remained as your friend
So, nothing will come to an end
But now, what is this I feel?
I knew it was something for real
I can’t take it anymore, and I need to confess
And tell you this…
I’m just afraid
Will you still be my friend?
Or maybe worst
My heart will end burst
Maybe if I felt this years before
I have nothing to be worry for
But I know this is what He planned
Maybe we’ll need to put this to its end
Maybe someone would still be waiting right there
Maybe it’s not you anymore
But I have one thing to wish for
That you’ll still be my friend once more…
Magic Genie
I love you, if you only knew
I care for you, if you only knew
How I want us together again?!
Together like what we used to do again and again…
How I wish I had a magic genie!
So, together we will be
Laughs and cries in each other’s arm
Fights and love with the same arm
How I want to be with you again?!
How I wish I could pretend?!
How I want to tell you this,,,
This love that I know I’ve already miss…
I know you still felt the same
But I don’t know if you’re still the same
The one that I’ve loved before…
The one that I will love even more…
I wish you could hear what I say
I want you to receive this love I lay
But maybe we’ll end here…
Here without knowing each other’s feelings that we’re afraid to hear…
I care for you, if you only knew
How I want us together again?!
Together like what we used to do again and again…
How I wish I had a magic genie!
So, together we will be
Laughs and cries in each other’s arm
Fights and love with the same arm
How I want to be with you again?!
How I wish I could pretend?!
How I want to tell you this,,,
This love that I know I’ve already miss…
I know you still felt the same
But I don’t know if you’re still the same
The one that I’ve loved before…
The one that I will love even more…
I wish you could hear what I say
I want you to receive this love I lay
But maybe we’ll end here…
Here without knowing each other’s feelings that we’re afraid to hear…
For You, I will
For you, I’d change my life
For you, I’d do everything right
For you, I’d light your life
For you, I’d change what I felt to be right
For I already loved you
Maybe I forced my feelings to be true
But, baby it’s real and only for you
That I know, at first, I regret this to be true
I already loved and used to be with you
That I can’t do anything to leave you apart
But I can’t tell you this feeling so true
That I’m afraid to lose you and regret at last part
You see, I want us together day and night
Even everybody would tell it against
I still know that this is used to be right
And to the Lord, so we’ll be together now until last
I would not promise to love you forever
It isn’t that I don’t love you that much
But I just like to do it and apart would be never
I will stay in your arms until my last touch…
For you, I’d do everything right
For you, I’d light your life
For you, I’d change what I felt to be right
For I already loved you
Maybe I forced my feelings to be true
But, baby it’s real and only for you
That I know, at first, I regret this to be true
I already loved and used to be with you
That I can’t do anything to leave you apart
But I can’t tell you this feeling so true
That I’m afraid to lose you and regret at last part
You see, I want us together day and night
Even everybody would tell it against
I still know that this is used to be right
And to the Lord, so we’ll be together now until last
I would not promise to love you forever
It isn’t that I don’t love you that much
But I just like to do it and apart would be never
I will stay in your arms until my last touch…
Fear of Sight
I had learned some fears
And it made me lay down some tears
But being with you, I’ve learned to conquer it all
I’ve been so strong and not afraid to fall
But why is this happening?
The things I’ve learned have found its ending
I’ve returned to my old me
And even worst, I don’t know who is me?!
Finding before
I can’t find it anymore
I kept on chasing it
But things just don’t fit…
Friend, I am looking for you…
I am nothing without you…
I am empty without you…
I am fearful without you…
Things have gone so strange
I can’t help but to change
Things has changed situations
Things had ended without conclusions
Even I don’t want these to happen
Just tried to accept it, so things won’t worsen
Crushed like a broken part
But I can’t heal this broken heart…
And it made me lay down some tears
But being with you, I’ve learned to conquer it all
I’ve been so strong and not afraid to fall
But why is this happening?
The things I’ve learned have found its ending
I’ve returned to my old me
And even worst, I don’t know who is me?!
Finding before
I can’t find it anymore
I kept on chasing it
But things just don’t fit…
Friend, I am looking for you…
I am nothing without you…
I am empty without you…
I am fearful without you…
Things have gone so strange
I can’t help but to change
Things has changed situations
Things had ended without conclusions
Even I don’t want these to happen
Just tried to accept it, so things won’t worsen
Crushed like a broken part
But I can’t heal this broken heart…
Fairytale Ending
I don’t know what to do?
But I know deep inside me, I Love You
I don’t want to lose you
And I want to be with you
But why is this happening?
It seems that it won’t have its ending
I don’t know you anymore
It seems that you’re not the one I loved before
And I’m starting to change my feelings
But I’m trying my best to stop this…
I don’t know what to do?
I want to be with you…
I hate this situation
And it’s not my notion
I’m not following it anymore
I’ll just explain it furthermore
Before, what I want I’d just do
I don’t need anyone to tell me what to do
Now it has changed
You’re now telling me to change
You’re the one telling me what’s right,
Wrong is wrong, right is right
Even it was against my decision
I have nothing to do against the situation
That was we before
Teaching each other
Often values and not just issues
I might now be serious
But it’s true, I’m missing you
You, who teaches me what to do
You, that’s been my problem solver and friend
That’s always there to mend
I guess our fairytale should end
Maybe it hasn’t even lasted
Maybe this was already goodbye
But you’ll always be my friend until time passes by…
But I know deep inside me, I Love You
I don’t want to lose you
And I want to be with you
But why is this happening?
It seems that it won’t have its ending
I don’t know you anymore
It seems that you’re not the one I loved before
And I’m starting to change my feelings
But I’m trying my best to stop this…
I don’t know what to do?
I want to be with you…
I hate this situation
And it’s not my notion
I’m not following it anymore
I’ll just explain it furthermore
Before, what I want I’d just do
I don’t need anyone to tell me what to do
Now it has changed
You’re now telling me to change
You’re the one telling me what’s right,
Wrong is wrong, right is right
Even it was against my decision
I have nothing to do against the situation
That was we before
Teaching each other
Often values and not just issues
I might now be serious
But it’s true, I’m missing you
You, who teaches me what to do
You, that’s been my problem solver and friend
That’s always there to mend
I guess our fairytale should end
Maybe it hasn’t even lasted
Maybe this was already goodbye
But you’ll always be my friend until time passes by…
Dream and Nightmare
You’re the first I loved
Since then you never left my mind
Even your out of sight
I still felt this was right
When you’re in front
I didn’t do anything right
Your making me crazy
And it makes me want you more, maybe
Years passed and I can remember you still
Even I could only see you once or twice for real
You’re still the one I choose
Even I encountered different looks
But I know all of this was all for dream
And it would only be in a realm
None of this was reality
Even my love for you was made faithfully!
And then I saw you with a maiden
I could not help but make my hurt deepen
The hurt worsen as time pass
And I can’t help to get through this!
Suddenly, I woke up rare
And I finally overcome this nightmare
I told myself, I don’t love you anymore
And I need my heart whole once more!
Since then you never left my mind
Even your out of sight
I still felt this was right
When you’re in front
I didn’t do anything right
Your making me crazy
And it makes me want you more, maybe
Years passed and I can remember you still
Even I could only see you once or twice for real
You’re still the one I choose
Even I encountered different looks
But I know all of this was all for dream
And it would only be in a realm
None of this was reality
Even my love for you was made faithfully!
And then I saw you with a maiden
I could not help but make my hurt deepen
The hurt worsen as time pass
And I can’t help to get through this!
Suddenly, I woke up rare
And I finally overcome this nightmare
I told myself, I don’t love you anymore
And I need my heart whole once more!
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Only Treasure
A father saw how his 8-year old child suffered from an incurable disease before it faced death. It caused him so much pain, many times more than that pain experienced by his child.
A week after the burial of his child, he decided to go to church. Not for praying so hard but to question God why He let this happen to him. God never answered his question by any means. So, he angrily said to God, “Why do you have to do this to me? Why do you have to take my only treasure? And why does the most painful thing has to happen to me?”
Still there was silence all around. He doesn’t know what to do and then suddenly there was a light, shining just in front of him, so bright but it’s a dazzling sight. He didn’t saw God but he saw his child waving at him with smile on his face. His child said, “He’s taking care of me, I’m okay, Dad.” Then, it disappeared with the feeling of anger in his heart because somehow he knew that God was always here, He never forgets to take good care to each one of us and God would never fail us, not now, never.
A week after the burial of his child, he decided to go to church. Not for praying so hard but to question God why He let this happen to him. God never answered his question by any means. So, he angrily said to God, “Why do you have to do this to me? Why do you have to take my only treasure? And why does the most painful thing has to happen to me?”
Still there was silence all around. He doesn’t know what to do and then suddenly there was a light, shining just in front of him, so bright but it’s a dazzling sight. He didn’t saw God but he saw his child waving at him with smile on his face. His child said, “He’s taking care of me, I’m okay, Dad.” Then, it disappeared with the feeling of anger in his heart because somehow he knew that God was always here, He never forgets to take good care to each one of us and God would never fail us, not now, never.
For You, I Will
For you, I’d change my life
For you, I’d do everything right
For you, I’d light your life
For you, I’d change what I felt to be right
For I already loved you
Maybe I forced my feelings to be true
But, baby it’s real and only for you
That I know, at first, I regret this to be true
I already loved and used to be with you
That I can’t do anything to leave you apart
But I can’t tell you this feeling so true
That I’m afraid to lose you and regret at last part
You see, I want us together day and night
Even everybody would tell it against
I still know that this is used to be right
And to the Lord, so we’ll be together now until last
I would not promise to love you forever
It isn’t that I don’t love you that much
But I just like to do it and apart would be never
I will stay in your arms until my last touch…
For you, I’d do everything right
For you, I’d light your life
For you, I’d change what I felt to be right
For I already loved you
Maybe I forced my feelings to be true
But, baby it’s real and only for you
That I know, at first, I regret this to be true
I already loved and used to be with you
That I can’t do anything to leave you apart
But I can’t tell you this feeling so true
That I’m afraid to lose you and regret at last part
You see, I want us together day and night
Even everybody would tell it against
I still know that this is used to be right
And to the Lord, so we’ll be together now until last
I would not promise to love you forever
It isn’t that I don’t love you that much
But I just like to do it and apart would be never
I will stay in your arms until my last touch…
Fairytale Ending
I don’t know what to do?
But I know deep inside me, I Love You
I don’t want to lose you
And I want to be with you
But why is this happening?
It seems that it won’t have its ending
I don’t know you anymore
It seems that you’re not the one I loved before
And I’m starting to change my feelings
But I’m trying my best to stop this…
I don’t know what to do?
I want to be with you…
I hate this situation
And it’s not my notion
I’m not following it anymore
I’ll just explain it furthermore
Before, what I want I’d just do
I don’t need anyone to tell me what to do
Now it has changed
You’re now telling me to change
You’re the one telling me what’s right,
Wrong is wrong, right is right
Even it was against my decision
I have nothing to do against the situation
That was we before
Teaching each other
Often values and not just issues
I might now be serious
But it’s true, I’m missing you
You, who teaches me what to do
You, that’s been my problem solver and friend
That’s always there to mend
I guess our fairytale should end
Maybe it hasn’t even lasted
Maybe this was already goodbyeBut you’ll always be my friend until time passes by
But I know deep inside me, I Love You
I don’t want to lose you
And I want to be with you
But why is this happening?
It seems that it won’t have its ending
I don’t know you anymore
It seems that you’re not the one I loved before
And I’m starting to change my feelings
But I’m trying my best to stop this…
I don’t know what to do?
I want to be with you…
I hate this situation
And it’s not my notion
I’m not following it anymore
I’ll just explain it furthermore
Before, what I want I’d just do
I don’t need anyone to tell me what to do
Now it has changed
You’re now telling me to change
You’re the one telling me what’s right,
Wrong is wrong, right is right
Even it was against my decision
I have nothing to do against the situation
That was we before
Teaching each other
Often values and not just issues
I might now be serious
But it’s true, I’m missing you
You, who teaches me what to do
You, that’s been my problem solver and friend
That’s always there to mend
I guess our fairytale should end
Maybe it hasn’t even lasted
Maybe this was already goodbyeBut you’ll always be my friend until time passes by
Dream and Nightmare
You’re the first I loved
Since then you never left my mind
Even your out of sight
I still felt this was right
When you’re in front
I didn’t do anything right
Your making me crazy
And it makes me want you more, maybe
Years passed and I can remember you still
Even I could only see you once or twice for real
You’re still the one I choose
Even I encountered different looks
But I know all of this was all for dream
And it would only be in a realm
None of this was reality
Even my love for you was made faithfully!
And then I saw you with a maiden
I could not help but make my hurt deepen
The hurt worsen as time pass
And I can’t help to get through this!
Suddenly, I woke up rare
And I finally overcome this nightmare
I told myself, I don’t love you anymore
And I need my heart whole once more!
Since then you never left my mind
Even your out of sight
I still felt this was right
When you’re in front
I didn’t do anything right
Your making me crazy
And it makes me want you more, maybe
Years passed and I can remember you still
Even I could only see you once or twice for real
You’re still the one I choose
Even I encountered different looks
But I know all of this was all for dream
And it would only be in a realm
None of this was reality
Even my love for you was made faithfully!
And then I saw you with a maiden
I could not help but make my hurt deepen
The hurt worsen as time pass
And I can’t help to get through this!
Suddenly, I woke up rare
And I finally overcome this nightmare
I told myself, I don’t love you anymore
And I need my heart whole once more!
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