will i make some friends out of it?. will i give it my really best or will i survive? i really don't know. surely, "natatakot tlgah ako.." no friends, no family and no school that i know. i'm really off the track.
on the first week, i would be such a hypocrite if i would say, "i really had so much fun!!!" coz i really miss everyone else, got so much problems about myself, i even entered the scenery of a child wanting to go home and doesn't want to go to school. i was such a kid. but that time i really don't have anyone to talk to. i don't have a mom to secure me that no problem will ever happen, i don't have a dad who kisses me in the forehead every time he leaves to secure me that everything will be go as what you always wanted it and i don't have friends to tell my problems to. YES!!! it's such a different world and i should be ready to that, but i'm not. I'm really not. I don't know but behind my head was a thought that this is what i really wanted, i shouldn't give up.
MUNTIK na tlgah... It really came. The time i really wanted to just give up and accept the fact that i can't stay here. I'm in fact sure enough, what to do after the first semester. change school, be in laguna, stay at home and be with my family. I'm really sure, it's already a plan but i found something that changed every plan i have in mind. I found some friends who somewhat understand who i am. They even give me a company every time I'm alone, they think about me, and we share thoughts. Yes, i already have some friends to talk to now. I even had a friend who feels the same way i do. We really had a good time. We even crack in some jokes with each other, it's really a company. i'm really having a good time now, and i would be willing to finish it here.
i'm happy. hahah... i really love the atmosphere now. but i must also accept the truth that i can't see my old friends like yesterday. They're so busy, as well as i am but i won't ever forget them. They who made me survive a challenge i almost gave up. Miss them so much...
